|
welcome ♥
i'm not the rockstar or supermodel i wish i were, so thanks for bothering to stop by & reading! DO LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS HERE! Free Guestbook by UltraGuest.com the b&w.
 janice chian the glamorously unglamorous girl you see standing there playing with her fingernails and guilty of trying not to shake her feet. just another girl next door who might bite when needed to. also that girl you might ♥ to death, or follow me.
links
alan
alven
jeremy
jessica
joylyn
jucia
kaytrieese
kidyie
kimberley
mariee
melissa
munnie
nethanel
philip
rebekah
sarah
suphier
weiling
weixun
xingjuen
yvonne
zhuqing let me know if you want to be linked or have changed url! =) archives
& colours in between.
 |
16.12.07
title: pain. time: 12:48 AM --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  what pain meant up til i was seven.pain was when i tried riding the bicycle and fell down. pain was when mummy goes out and brings my brother but not me. pain was when i fell down and scabbed my knee. pain was when mummy punishes me when i was naughty. pain was when my lil sister bit me outta nowhere til i bled. pain was when my bro took his new toy riffle and whacked my head with it. * what pain meant until i was twelve. pain was when teachers scolded me and made me feel stupid. pain was when i changed schools and have to make new friends. pain was when i got scolded for saying bad words i didnt know the meaning of. pain was when i started realising that people weren't all nice. pain was when i fell down and friends laughed at me for it. pain was when i realise that i had people who really hated me. pain was being compared to people you can never be as good as. * what pain is since twelve. pain is knowing that life is short and people around you actually leave. pain is knowing that love isnt always reciprocated. pain is seeing dreams and fairytales fall apart. pain is hurting friends and making mistakes you can never undo. pain is when so-called-friends say untrue stuff behind your back. pain is slitting yourself but still not able to replace the real pain inside. pain is knowing friends change and sometimes walk out the door and never come back. pain is feeling not loved enough. pain is loving someone who would never love you back the same way. pain is loving someone you shouldn't. pain is getting a really bad result. pain is feeling never good enough. pain is trusting someone so much only to be let down. pain is the inability to forgive or forget. pain is being replaced or the fear of it. pain is when you realise that the word forever literally never exists. pain is the feeling of a person's heart when being cheated on. pain is feeling lonely and having no one around when you need someone most. pain is having to let go because of not wanting to be selfish. pain is when change happens when you're most comfortable with the unchanged present. *** pain kills. * i'd a brilliant day. spent the day watching two movies at qt's. and had one of the most memorable night ever today. one that i can never thank the person enough, for being the sweetest ever. and for making me feel that my happiness mattered. =) thank you. xoxo |