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janice chian
the glamorously unglamorous girl you see standing there playing with her fingernails and guilty of trying not to shake her feet.

just another girl next door who might bite when needed to.
also that girl you might ♥ to death, or hate to the core.

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    26.2.08
    title: silence.
    time: 1:46 AM
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    SILENCE
    doesn't mean that i am sad.
    doesn't mean that i do not want to talk about it.
    doesn't mean that i agree with what you say.
    doesn't mean its fine to slam the place i'm from down no matter how true it is.
    doesn't mean you can say that you hate me even though i couldn't care less if you do.
    doesn't mean you can presume the many things and conclusions you do about my personal life.
    doesn't mean i think its true.
    doesn't mean that i do not care about you.
    doesn't mean i am happy with the way everything is done.
    doesn't mean i'm antisocial.
    doesn't mean i took you for granted.
    doesn't mean i'm cold as ice.
    doesn't mean consent.
    ***
    once upon a time,
    i was the kinda girl who snaps the moment i'm not happy.
    who shows my displeasure the moment it happens.
    after a while, i learnt how to sometimes take it all in...
    only telling how unhappy i am to some people.
    and to take a deep breath and count til 10 and not say anything unless it is needed.
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    i dont think its a matter of growing up for me.
    because i know, i will still speak up if it ever passes my limits.
    i think for me right now...
    its like 'what has anyone ever not said about me before' after all?
    i dont need to defend myself just to prove that whatever people say sometimes is untrue.
    nope. didnt just hear some random new rumour bout me or something.
    coz even if there was, as long as the people who matter knows the truth.
    who cares bout the others?
    after all, its definitely the people who matter who know the real thing.
    *
    just a sudden random post when i suddenly realised i have been more quiet than i have been in a while. =) but like i said, my silence doesnt mean im unhappy with life or whatever. coz i am. =]
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    xxx